| This xanga is getting outdated, not to mention I sort of want it to reflect more of me.
My new xanga: http://www.xanga.com/Tryle
I'm gonna transmit my viewers to my new one. The new one will be updated a lot more often than this one.
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| I really don't know where to start with this because in all honesty it almost feels like there are 439 things running through my mind.
Honestly, I have no clue why I continue going to church/fellowship. It's been something that's been on my mind for a long long time and the more I go, it seems more of a waste of time. Everyone gives me the same old excuse that you go there for God and all that, but if my life is to be a continuous worship anyway, what's the point? I go there and virtually the bonds and friendships that I had developed in the past year are now gone. And all because of what?
Not to make myself sound like "woe is me" or I have the worst life in the world, but the past few months have been extremely tough. Being jobless and then working for a job agency for an extended period of time (now soon no longer, thank God). I haven't been to fellowship because I was stuck in Mississauga, with little cash and little time to be able to see anybody. Not to mention, my mom is VERY sick and she still is, and the fact that before I didn't have a stable job only worsened my mom's health state.
So, maybe I haven't been attending fellowship these days, and maybe I haven't exactly committed to many activities, only due to circumstances. Why all of a sudden has that now equated to a lack of response to close friends (or at least I thought), lack of communication (despite my attempts) and sometimes at certain incidents being blatantly ignored? On the other hand, it seems the formulaic way to better your life (in the life of a fellowship) is to attend every possible prayer meeting/worship meeting that has existed, meet each other until they're blue in the face and create this sort of utopia-like environment where all that comes out is "God is good! All the time!".
By now, this is a good indication that this is a rant, but a rant that speaks only honest truth and quite frankly don't want to do anything with this lifestyle. I've wasted enough time listening to this synonymous thinking and perhaps it's about time I do worship my own way. And don't give me this "we're not perfect" crap because the world damn knows it already. Why can't fellowship just be more honest?
In conclusion, there isn't much a conclusion really, but more so I myself have a direction and it sure hell ain't going to be church related.
Bye.
P.S. Rants usually will consist of grammatical/spelling mistakes. Use your intuition to figure out what I really meant.
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| Again, this post will be short again.
From the way I see it, I have 3...maybe 4...I'll say 4 things that I need to focus on.
1. Lose weight (get buffed)
2. Complete the damn CSC. Therefore, no more procrastination.
3. Master at C-Walk
4. Switching jobs once completed the CSC.
That is all.
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| Merry Christmas, Happy Birthday Jesus.
Yes, this is an absolutely waste of a post and a lazy way out to say something within such a time frame. But nevertheless, Happy Holidays!
^_^
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| How on earth did I sleep at 8PM yesterday? o_0
How did I sleep for 12 hours later of this? o_0
And now I'm writing a xanga post. Peace.
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